I couldn’t sleep last night so I decided to do what I do best when I’m awake. Write.

I have this selfish complex where I don’t enjoy praying in public. Sigh, never have, not sure if I ever will. I’m thankful for the public church prayers, blessings rain from Heaven and I partake of another’s labor (their courage, willingness, selflessness) but me, I just can’t bring myself. The prayers start conversational, then they grow louder and louder and louder, like shouting to God and yea, we are permitted to make a joyful noise and cry out for God but I can’t bring myself to shout at God…

Excuse for cowardliness or complex humility? You decide.

I pray, without ceasing, burning bush Moses style fireside chats, but never elongated soliloquies that don’t grant my God equal or greater time to speak to me. We converse in intervals, admittedly I sometime ramble but I always pause to listen for his responses. I often wonder do people pray privately the way they pray publicly? Eh.

And this is no shade to church warrior prayers, I just know it isn’t my gift in the same manner I doubt oratorical sermons are my gift either. There is a sentiment of theatrics, rehearsal and performance that bothers me. There is a sacred intimacy to God that I can’t stream live, am I simply selfish?


I am often mistaken as charismatic. I am not. The Holy Spirit that dwells in me is charismatic, I am not. I am quiet, I am analytical, I am an introvert, I am pensive, I am a writer.

My Bible Blogs truly give me life. Oral sermons are great they serve their distinct purpose but for those that need to seek God, that need time to explore God, that need to be alone, interrupted, free from the politics of interpersonal church relations to find God, I hope I can help.

If you are ashamedly questioning your faith and want private answers, I hope I can help.

If you are depressed and detected, frightened by a life without God but frightened by the demands of righteousness set by God, I hope I can help.

I hope you can heal.

I hope these diary pages help release the perfect love that cast out fear.

Good night.

God loves you. God bless you.

Aloe Vera is the Secret to Clear Skin

Slice an Aloe Vera leaf and place raw contents on dry skin for immediate acne healing results!!!! Eat Aloe Vera leaf for internal cleansing!!!

After years of non-stop acne and scarring , trying every natural and dermatologist prescribed medicine on Earth, I finally received some groundbreaking advice, ALOE VERA!

Buy a whole leaf, slice in half to consume the inner contents and rub vigorously on face and neck.

Courtesy of the National Institute of Health,

Active components with its properties: Aloe vera contains 75 potentially active constituents: vitamins, enzymes, minerals, sugars, lignin, saponins, salicylic acids and amino acids.46

  1. Vitamins: It contains vitamins A (beta-carotene), C and E, which are antioxidants. It also contains vitamin B12, folic acid, and choline. Antioxidant neutralizes free radicals.
  2. Enzymes: It contains 8 enzymes: aliiase, alkaline phosphatase, amylase, bradykinase, carboxypeptidase, catalase, cellulase, lipase, and peroxidase. Bradykinase helps to reduce excessive inflammation when applied to the skin topically, while others help in the breakdown of sugars and fats.
  3. Minerals: It provides calcium, chromium, copper, selenium, magnesium, manganese, potassium, sodium and zinc. They are essential for the proper functioning of various enzyme systems in different metabolic pathways and few are antioxidants.
  4. Sugars: It provides monosaccharides (glucose and fructose) and polysaccharides: (glucomannans/polymannose). These are derived from the mucilage layer of the plant and are known as mucopolysaccharides. The most prominent monosaccharide is mannose-6-phosphate, and the most common polysaccharides are called glucomannans [beta-(1,4)-acetylated mannan]. Acemannan, a prominent glucomannan has also been found. Recently, a glycoprotein with antiallergic properties, called alprogen and novel anti-inflammatory compound, C-glucosyl chromone, has been isolated from Aloe vera gel.7,8
  5. Anthraquinones: It provides 12 anthraquinones, which are phenolic compounds traditionally known as laxatives. Aloin and emodin act as analgesics, antibacterials and antivirals.
  6. Fatty acids: It provides 4 plant steroids; cholesterol, campesterol, β-sisosterol and lupeol. All these have anti-inflammatory action and lupeol also possesses antiseptic and analgesic properties.
  7. Hormones: Auxins and gibberellins that help in wound healing and have anti-inflammatory action.
  8. Others: It provides 20 of the 22 human required amino acids and 7 of the 8 essential amino acids. It also contains salicylic acid that possesses anti-inflammatory and antibacterial properties. Lignin, an inert substance, when included in topical preparations, enhances penetrative effect of the other ingredients into the skin. Saponins that are the soapy substances form about 3% of the gel and have cleansing and antiseptic properties.